Another year another lesson.

Last day of 2013. 3.24am. I am here sitting in front of my lappy completing the blogpost I started 2 days ago.

And it is finally the last day of 2013. The year I wanted it to end so badly. Yet I am so grateful I had this particular year in my life.

2013 would be the toughest year I ever had. If life will only gets harder, I can't imagine.

I never thought that it will be this tough.

This year, I had my first  working experience. I worked as a teaching assistant nearby. It was such a great experience. The salary was not high but what I gained from it were so much more than money. I am not afraid to talk in front of public anymore. I had the one of the best memories with a precious one. We did not turn up to be the way I wanted, but I am so glad that I would still smile every time I think of you.

Thank you. 

That I did not regret about lossing you because I know you deserve something better.

That you become my sweetest and greatest lost. 

谢谢你变成我永远怀念并不后悔的回忆。

Then I moved to the current stage of life. College.

Coming to college was in my schedule of life from long time ago. The only thing that came out in sudden was I decided to financially independent. I have no income but I knew if I had decided to do so, I will find a way to live on my own. I never feel regret about this decision, even there are so many times I was being so depressed about incapable to do what I want or get what I want. I know this will make me a better person someday. This is the reason that I hold it.

As I am financially independent, I did some part time job during my semester break. Being a promoter is actually more enjoyable than I thought. Probably because the job I found was not too stress. But I enjoy working life a lot.

Then in semester 2, I admitted than my life gone wild in a very bad way. Even though I am getting back on the right track now, but what I have done is a history I can never wash away.  

Then I become a little too unlucky that lost my phone and money. It was not too much but yet enough to make my life miserable. I would not blame anyone but myself being careless.

All this were never enough to make me feel hopeless. Until I found out about her sickness one month ago. The close one would know who and what I am talking about. I could not do anything but pray. And I am not even sure what to pray. Praying that she don't need to suffer much or praying that what she is going through will eventually pass away and she will stay with us.

All I can say is... people leave eventually. No matter soon or later, we all will become part of the memories. I decide to let the god decide on her future. No matter what is happening, I chose to believe it is what god planned for her and it can never be bad for her.

Take what has come.
Let go what has left.

The greatest thing that ever happened this year is that I have found these friends during my hardest day. I could not tell how much I love them and I don't know why too.

你们是我没有祈祷却也得到的幸福。

不知道我们会要好多久。

但，我好庆幸2013我遇见了你们。

爱你们哟。