Saturday, May 4, 2013

Strength.

Haven't update for 2 weeks. And that is half month if you don't feel long enough. This is a mentally tired post, I din't realized my mental has a worse stamina than my body.

So I started my college this week. Being away from parents and my teddy bear was so hard. I felt so empty without them. I could not hold myself from feeling homesick when home is always the biggest part of my life and family is the thing that make my heart keep on beating.

I know, I said I want to be independent. I still want to be, but life is too short. You will never know when will you lose what you love, so protect and appreciate them.

Currently feeling very down. There could have so much going on my life, always going on. I sometimes wonder do I really have so much to care? Or I am just taking the responsibility that does not even should be mine? Sometimes I just feel like my shoulder could be a little overloaded, it explains why do I feel so tired.

I don't mind doing more, just give me a reason. ( Singing pink song no la just kidding)
When I love you and could have care so much for you, be my strength to go on, not the burden to pull me down.

I know I have been too desperate on everything. I din't ask for anyone to understand, no one wanted to put their feet in one's shoes. But I have to say, I have lot of responsibilities. If I failed to do anything, it will not be just about me. I rather to give up on my happiness so that they could have one.

Let me count on someone like people count on me. I don't need someone to protect me, but someone who would face challenges together with me.