Judging myself.

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Here is a come back post after more than a month not being active in blogger. This is life of a form 5 student,  there is never enough time for both study and entertainment. As I mentioned, there is more than a month that I did not update my blog. I was not sensing any guilt until I found out my blog state never drop to zero for such a long time and even growing rapidly these few days. Is it just some random stranger bumped into my blog or there is real reader? It does not really matter, the blogging thing will continue. Do I have a real reader now? It is okay if I don't have one, I will have them as long as I continue.

SPM is such a new experience for me, of course I would not want to experience it again. I have been put very much effort in the exam as it is an exam without any tips. I decided to give up on prediction after a few subject, the prediction was not that accurate and I realized study everything was the only way to be safe. It changed my way to study, turned me into a hardworking people I would say, and last but not least, it changed my thoughts about result.

I believe that most of us are seeking for the best or even perfection in what we are doing. I am one of them and I never regretted my thoughts. It made me a better person, at least a motivated and enthusiastic person in pursuing my dreams. I wanted to be the best among all. I did not make it even in the last exam I could, perhaps my ability are limited or everyone is paying more effort than I do. There are moments that I am frustrated with myself, got upset, but most of the time, disappointed with my failure.

But then I realize I was wrong to used others to judge myself.

Not being better than other was never a failure, but not being better than before is. I looked back to my result and it did show improvement compared to my previous exam. Every little improvement was the pay back for all my effort. the intention of the effort may not to be better than before but to be better than the others, but it still pays off. I made a mistake when I compared myself to others. Everyone is different, why do I still used other to define myself?

Exam is not for you to compare yourself to others, but to tell you how much did you improve. The society may have make you think that examination is to make you the best among all your friends, but the truth is not like that. Study hard for to improve yourself, not to compare to the others. Your hard work is not to bring the others down, but to get yourself up there.

No matter what are you doing, always remember to do it for yourself and for good intention.