After exam..... coming soon.

Okay, I am still having exam now but I wanted to update just one blog post first about what I wanna do after my mid-term exam. It will be over on next week. Just one more week of torture and I am very excited already. But actually kinda sad because the next exam i will have will be trial for SPM which is very important and it might affect the rest of my life WTF I still could not accept the truth that our future and the rest of our life will be depend on one SPM result. T__T

So here is the things I wanna do after my shitty exam.

1. Do a real blog post. 

    Okay not just one post but a few post.The important one is I need to do a revenge post. Just wait.

2. Sleep

    My dark circle is very scary now. I am very up set about it. I do not like it. But I did rather to get dark circle than failing in exam. #kiasu

3.Shopping

   Hopefully I can find beautiful pieces that suit me. I need it for brother's wedding. Btw their wedding is in progress and still very headache for the guests thing. WAY TOO COMPLICATED. 

4.Avoid sunlight as much as possible.

   I do not know how but i just do not like my skin colour now. I am very jelly about my sis because she gets fairer every time i see her. and i get darker. T__T

5.Must hang out with friends.

   Final year of secondary school. must gain more memories. I am bored with my current life also. been repeating the same routine everyday. =_______=

6.Update my life a little bit.

   Somehow I feel like my life is......... damn I cannot find a word to describe it. It went out of my control. I gained haters, even more anti-social than before. temper get worse, and some other problems you do not even want to know. I need to clean up all the mess. :(

7.Adjust my emotion a lot

   I became very emotional recently. I do not behave like myself already. Shit me. I kinda hate this me now.

8.Do all the homework i did not do before exam. (okay, that is if i got mood to do.)

9.I think there is more things I need to do. I just could not remember them now. 

I am looking forward for the 2 weeks holiday. Even I am sure it is not enough for me, but better than nothing. 

Btw I heard alot about 'the secret' recently. kinda work.wtf 

Why You Say Sorry?

Finally decided to write a normal blog post because no homework today. #WTF

So, before this normal post, i wrote a few very depressing blog posts. Here the story for all those post, I got 'dumped' by #addiction. Brother is getting marry and the preparation drives the whole family crazy. And other problems that i would just keep them to myself. And one more, my backache is driving me crazy too. #WTF So my life become a disaster and everyday i hear bad news. This situation still on going. Now I am hated by someone and I don't even know why. #WTF

Back to today's topic. Why you say sorry?

I am sorry, I feel like it is better for us to be friend. I did not want to hurt you. 
The awesome famous sentences that we all hear when someone tries to break up or we are trying to break up with someone. The word SORRY is to show our guilt, and all the sentences are just to elaborate how sorry we feel and hopefully they will forgive us. I believe when a person say that, he/she really feel guilty lar, but sometimes there are some different types of guilty. Here is it.

type A- You feel guilty because of the person is someone you did not want to hurt.
type B- You feel guilty because you think what you are doing is something immoral, you feel like you are a bad guy.

What is the different?
In type A, you feel sorry to the person because you did not want to hurt that person. It means that you really have feelings to him/her, you love that person, but something become the obstacle between both of you or your love for that person is not that kind of love. It is easier for that person to forgive you if you really feel sorry to him/her. I am sure that person can feel it if you are really sincerely want him/her to forgive you.

But in type B, it is just you are feeling sorry to yourself (and the god maybe). Your guilt has nothing to do with your ex, then you say sorry for what? You are not feeling sorry to him/her, why you want him/her to forgive you?It seems that you want your Ex to forgive you so that you will feel better and you can tell the world ''I am not a bad person, even him/her can forgive me, I did not make a huge mistake''. #WTF I tell you, it is super irritating when you face situation like this and you will never ever think about forgiving that bastard. #WTF  Not encouraging everyone to be revengeful or what, but why should we forgive someone that does not really feel sorry to us?

So this is why we should always be aware and observe everything. No one wants to be fool, get dumped and used. Do not let them use us so that they can escape from all the guilt and no one gonna blame them even they break your heart. We should always be aware and understand the real situation. Do not simply forgive someone. When you say sorry, it means that you know your mistake, and you are willing to change it. if you are not going to change, you just gonna say sorry every time, all the sorry you said is meaningless. So make sure that person are really sorry before you forgive. OR you may just forget instead of forgive. #WTF

To those type B,
Do not expect someone to forgive you when you are not really sorry.