这些日子

写不完的Post, 一个接一个.但我还是搁下那些写不下去的post,然后写这个.

''我很喜欢你们班.''

我在刘先生的班说了这句话.不是因为特别美还是什么,也不是与世隔绝的班.但是却有逃离现实的感觉.逃离.现实.不知道是什么时候开始,现实已经残酷到我不想接受.恶心到我想逃离.很心寒,想到就很心寒.这就是现实.人真的很恐怖. 现实真的很残酷. 我们都是人,却搞不懂人.为什么要虚伪.为什么要自私. 为什么要讨厌. 为什么要喜欢. 为什么要复杂.为什么,要复杂.

为什么,我也变得复杂.

人,是不是都有邪恶的一面.

突然醒悟想起自己犯下的错误. 我是为了什么. 我几时成为那样的人了.我竟然成为这种恶心的人了.为了目的,我违背良心.即使是小事,但还是违背了良心.面对一点的利益,我已经放弃了道德.以后我会是怎么样的人.我会不会,就这样成为无恶不作的人.质疑自己怎么可以那么忍心,有些东西明明可以放弃,但我放弃了道德.

或许我就是邪恶的.

就是这样邪恶的.

生活变得很恶心.不想这样生活.但却一天天过去了.

Fool

Humans are funny. They make fun of themselves and they do not even realize.

They dig out the deepest part of their heart but they are not ready for it. They try something but they can't afford the consequences.

Sometimes they do things that gonna hurt them.
End up crying.
End up heartache.

Some people dig out the secret they din't know, or just something they missed out.
But they never think of how much it can hurt them.

They give with the hopes that they can get something back.
But they get nothing except heartache.

They find out the truth that they thought it gonna make them feel better.
But the truth is harder to accept than they thought it will be.

I am one of the fool, are you?